Blue October - Hate Me

beautiful song.

ive always thought of it as a really nice song.

but little did i know the meaning behind it all.

beautiful. touching. and true.

i think the song is about how his mother loves him

despite all the things that he did and did not do

and that his mother should've hate him instead.

later i found out that through and interview

the band said that it was written

about one of their mother who passed away.

Mother: "Hi Justin! This is your mother it is 2:33 on Monday afternoon. I was just calling to see how you were doing. You sounded really uptight last night, it made me a little nervous, and a little, well it made me nervous, but it sounded like you were nervous too. I just want to make sure you are really okay and wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication. You know I love ya. Take care honey, I know you're under a lot of pressure. See ya. Bye Bye!"

I have to block out thoughts of you

So I don't lose my head

They crawl in like a cockroach

Leaving babies in my bed

Dropping little reels of tape

To remind me that I'm alone

Playing movies in my head

That make a porno feel like home

There's a burning in my pride

A nervous bleeding in my brain

An ounce of peace is all I want for you

Will you never call again?

And will you never say that you love me

Just to put it in my face?

And will you never try to reach me

it is I that wanted this

Hate me today

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

I'm sober now for 3 whole months

It's one accomplishment that you helped me with

The one thing that always tore us apart

Is the one thing that I won't touch again

In a sick way I want to thank you

For holding my head up late at night

While I was busy waging wars on myself

You were trying to stop the fight

You never doubted my warped opinions

On things like suicidal hate

You made me compliment myself

When it was way too hard to take

So I'll drive so fucking far away

That I'll never cross your mind

And do whatever it takes in your heart

To leave me behind

Hate me today

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swallow

Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

And when the sad hard eyes say bye to you and wave

Kicking shadows on the street

For every mistake that I have made

And like a baby boy I never was a man

Until I saw your blue eyes cry

And I held your face in my hand

And then I found out I can't make it go away

Just make it stop

Come back and shine just like it used to be

And then she whispered:

"How could you did this to me?"

Hate me today

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swallow

Hate me so you can finally see

What's good for you, for you, for you, for you...