Blue October - Hate Me

beautiful song.

ive always thought of it as a really nice song.

but little did i know the meaning behind it all.

beautiful. touching. and true.

i think the song is about how his mother loves him

despite all the things that he did and did not do

and that his mother should've hate him instead.

later i found out that through and interview

the band said that it was written

about one of their mother who passed away.

Mother: "Hi Justin! This is your mother it is 2:33 on Monday afternoon. I was just calling to see how you were doing. You sounded really uptight last night, it made me a little nervous, and a little, well it made me nervous, but it sounded like you were nervous too. I just want to make sure you are really okay and wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication. You know I love ya. Take care honey, I know you're under a lot of pressure. See ya. Bye Bye!"

I have to block out thoughts of you

So I don't lose my head

They crawl in like a cockroach

Leaving babies in my bed

Dropping little reels of tape

To remind me that I'm alone

Playing movies in my head

That make a porno feel like home

There's a burning in my pride

A nervous bleeding in my brain

An ounce of peace is all I want for you

Will you never call again?

And will you never say that you love me

Just to put it in my face?

And will you never try to reach me

it is I that wanted this

Hate me today

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

I'm sober now for 3 whole months

It's one accomplishment that you helped me with

The one thing that always tore us apart

Is the one thing that I won't touch again

In a sick way I want to thank you

For holding my head up late at night

While I was busy waging wars on myself

You were trying to stop the fight

You never doubted my warped opinions

On things like suicidal hate

You made me compliment myself

When it was way too hard to take

So I'll drive so fucking far away

That I'll never cross your mind

And do whatever it takes in your heart

To leave me behind

Hate me today

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swallow

Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

And when the sad hard eyes say bye to you and wave

Kicking shadows on the street

For every mistake that I have made

And like a baby boy I never was a man

Until I saw your blue eyes cry

And I held your face in my hand

And then I found out I can't make it go away

Just make it stop

Come back and shine just like it used to be

And then she whispered:

"How could you did this to me?"

Hate me today

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swallow

Hate me so you can finally see

What's good for you, for you, for you, for you...

Canon vs Nikon

Just got back from KL.

tiring trip.

most probably due to the lack of sleep. xD

[roommates]

photos?

not today. =]

this is for the nikon ladies out there~

Joey Lawrence[link]

Song recommendations:

Feeder[link] another band with great songs that is underrated.

most of today's pop songs are overrated

with little or no content

even rap was better back in the 80s and 90s

Tupac[link]

Before he got shot. for the 2nd time.

Artist: Feeder

Title: Feeling the Moment

Album: Pushing the Senses (2005)

Artist: Feeder

Title: High

Album: Polythene (1997)

Today on Google:

Today is Dennis Gabor's 110th Birthday[link]

if he is still alive.

Dennis Gobar

1900 - 1979

Wallpaper:

continuing from previous posts

im gonna post another wallpaper of mine

=]

[edited to fit on 1680 x 1050]

hulk smash little people!!! rawwwrrr

xD

Get a girlfriend

Monday. class starts. which means the holiday has ended.

i think tomorrow's class will be Skill & Strategies in Helping Professions (PSY355)

[something about counseling?]

and the others im not sure. lol

will be heading down to kl on wednesday morning

[i think]

anyway

came across these adverts some time ago.

while i was looking for inspiration. xD

advertisements by AXE















and my recent wallpaper:

[click to enlarge] [edited to fit on 1680 x 1050]

big fan of Heath Ledger's joker!!

best joker imo.

Random

ive been sleeping at odd hours lately

needa adjust my sleeping pattern

again.

just a short update

will update soon with more photos

and maybe some videos

of the trip.

my current wallpaper.

click on the photo to enlarge.

for those who like to watch comedies

check out college humor[link] on youtube[link].

another site called RocketBoom[link] on youtube[link]

Rocketboom is a daily international news program based in New York City. They cover a wide range of information and commentary from top news stories to contemporary internet culture.

What would you do?

would you aid a fallen person?

too often we tend to give ourselves plenty of good reasons to not help

if a person is dirty and holding a can of beer

we tend to tell ourselves

that he is just a drunk homeless guy

and he is just probably sleeping

or something

and walked away.


maybe due to bystander effect?

there are so many people around

someone who is better qualified could help him

i am just a normal person


help

we should

and we could

but

would you?

The line between good and evil, hope and despair, does not divide the world between "us" and "them." It runs down the middle of every one of us.

Robert Fulghum (b.1937)
It Was on Fire When I Lay Down on It, 1990

food for thought.

=]

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Coke Light

been an extremely hectic week. with assignments coming in left and right.

yes. left and right. no other directions. because there are two of them major headaches.

one of them was the graphic design final assignment.

extremely time consuming.

oh well. its finished anyhow. will post some of my works here.

before i can catch a breath. another assignment dues in two days.

cognition. and we have to write a lab report on Stroop Effect [link].

reading journals after journals.

my eyes almost got blinded by the light coming out of the monitor.

managed to finish it on the morning of friday. about 11am. @@


my supper 辛! yumz


went to take a rest and ended up sleeping past my alarms.

yea. you see it right. alarm with an S. i slept through 5 alarms. lol

ended up late to class. and to find out that i forget to do the abstract for the report. ==

when i was trying to print the appendix.

the auntie at the printing booth told me it costs RM2 per page.

what!?!? im just printing 10 words in colour. omg.

and theres no way she could do anything about it

because she is just working there.

and thanks to

vernn for giving her extra test sheets

mk for helping me to fill the cover sheet

sanique for using his laptop to type the abstract

the auntie for stapling

xD

Coke Light:

(click on to enlarge)

but my bro prefer it this way.

On another note. my toe is getting better. =]

(viewers discretion is advised)

x]

Crysis 2 Trailer

Polly Scattergood [link] of UK performed a somber cover of the Liza Minnelli classic ‘New York, New York’ on the trailer for the videogame ‘Crysis 2′ [link].

making cheerful lyrics dark and gloomy. beautiful!



Following is a trailer of Crysis 2!

iPhone 4G

The supposedly lost iphone 4G[link] was proved to be authentic! How? They got a letter[link] from Apple's attorney. Gizmodo who got that iphone from someone who picked it up in a bar near Apple HQ in Cupertino. To read the whole story go here [link]. I doubt that it's really lost by a tech from Apple. With Apple always being secretive and have everything under protection from being leaked. I think it was planted there as a marketing tactic? Maybe? We will find out in time. Quote from Gizmodo :

"Until now, Apple's legendary security has always worked perfectly...but the fact is that there's no perfect security. Not when humans are involved. Humans that can lose things. You know, like the next generation iPhone."

As for the letter, like that reply!

"I hope you take it easy on the kid who lost it."

Ezra Frech

Just finished watching the Hangover.
not as hilarious as I expected.
but very nice anyway. =]


on another note
here's a heart warming story.



Making Ezra Frech's Dream Come True

a touching story of a boy with disabilities and how he overcome them all.

Days in the Military

soldiers have always been synonymous bravery,

highly trained and disciplined professionals.

So let us look at their trainings!

Korea

U.S.

that's how you should not fire a machine gun. xD



the launcher went with the missile. lol


great teamwork! hahaha

Mexico

Mexican special forces landing in during a military parade.

Britain

beach landing. they storm the beach! and got stuck. LOL

Norway

Norwegian troops, using G3 varient rifles,
deploy a flash bang during training and the throw man doesn't quite make it. LOL

and the most epic fail of them all *drum rolls*

France

hahahahahahahahaha and some funny clips made by soldiers








Ippon!!! american soldier lost to an Iraqi
nice



and the funniest sketch of the taliban!!!